personal sacrifices

Author: angiem, 03 15th, 2010

In an effort to lose ten pounds, and teach myself some discipline along the way, I have decided to go on a refined sugar and flour fast. Easier said than done, as I am the biggest sugar and flour addict I know. But summer is coming so putting it off is not an option any longer. And I have found it to be true that weight loss is 85% diet related. I will start tomorrow. I know it sounds like I’m putting it off, but I have a reason why. Today needs to be spent poring over my half dozen cookbooks (because I am not a genius in the kitchen I rely on cookbooks, and I really like those with pictures so I know that a semblance of the food pictured is expected), and planning every meal and snack. If I don’t have everything planned and within reach, I will panic and give in to the nearest brownie.

I have done this before and know that it will be difficult. The last time I did it, I felt such compassion for addicts of one substance or another and so much respect for the ones that kicked the habit and persevered. It isn’t easy. Sugar and flour withdrawals are nothing to sniff at.

Tomorrow evening I will be cursing all those female standards of beauty that we women fall for, while at the same time telling myself not to give in to my sugar deprived brain telling me that I’m fine the way I am. To help myself along, I should probably make fifty or so copies of one of my favorite pre-children photos and tape them throughout the kitchen, pantry and car. Maybe line my purse with a bunch of them as well.

As I am writing this, I am enjoying what will probably my last sugar laden sweet – an almond croissant dusted with powdered sugar from my favorite bakery – for the next two weeks. I am eating it as slowly as I can in order to prolong the pleasure. Should I spoil myself with such treats all day, as tomorrow will inevitably arrive with its new burden? Hmm… what a dilemma!


45 Responses to “personal sacrifices”

  1. laura Says:

    If I could do the same, I think ten pounds would melt off in no time. I’ll be thinking of you in this brave quest! Just think how much better you will feel too.

    and–i like the cookbooks with the pictures too.

  2. Theresa Says:

    When you are craving sugar and flour products, usually it’s because your body needs protein. If you increase your protein, you will have an easier time with this. Good luck.

  3. deb @ talk at the table Says:

    Good luck to you in this, Angie.
    Don’t be too hard on yourself, our bodies can’t fight gravity! And from what I’ve seen, you are gorgeously perfect.

    on another note…. it is good to be back . In my real home, and here among my treasured beautiful soul enriching blog friends like you. I was able to get on some sites from the resort, but not here.
    I have enjoyed catching up, too bad I missed the giveaway. My daughter and I ate at the Belthazar in NYC, it was divine.

    I hope you’re not working too hard.

    love to you,

  4. She Writes Says:

    I think you feel will better and better. I rarely eat flour or sugar and have tons of energy most days. Caffeine is next on my list.

    Good luck on the weight loss :)!!

  5. Ava Says:

    Good luck Angie. I know how hard addictions are to get over. I agree that sugar and flour are no exceptions.

  6. Jena Says:

    You don’t need to lose weight. Best wishes on your quest of eating healthier.

  7. Mary Moon Says:

    Do you think it gets easier after a day or two?
    Good luck, dear.

  8. Diane Says:

    You can do it. A lot of times I get headaches from the yeast die off I experience. Your tongue will look very white. Praying for you! hugs :O)

  9. mrsbear Says:

    I’m considering taking the same plunge based on the snugness of my jeans of late. Sweets are my biggest, biggest hurdle. And I’ve gotten in to such a terrible habit of having dessert after every meal, so that post dinner sweetness is going to be felt sorely. Keep us updated on how it goes. Also, against me - my morning cup of coffee, sugar substitutes just aren’t the same…but perhaps you’ve inspired me this Monday. :)

  10. Sabine Says:

    What?!?! No crunchy baguette, delicious croissants, soul-stroking pasta… That’s tough! But I’m sure your body will love it and the first piece of white bread will taste all the better. Wishing you strength!

  11. Beth Says:

    Lose those ten pounds only if they are bothering you – not to live up to anyone else’s standards.
    I like the idea of a reward system when dieting – a promise of one treat a week. Keeps me sane, motivated and on track.
    And, yes, gorge today!

  12. Susan Says:

    Dear Angie:

    Congratulations on the decision and good luck with the plan.

    I will send positivity vibes from here so that you keep up the promise you have made to yourself.

    Go for it.

    Courage and hope always,

  13. Kathy Says:

    Wow good for you I need to lose alot of weight but I love my bread. Have a wonderful Monday.

  14. Mwa Says:

    Good luck! (Maybe plan in one small treat a week or something - that always helps me. For me, it was always a nice Sunday lunch with a glass of wine.)

  15. angiem Says:

    Laura - It is so difficult, though, isn’t it?

    Theresa - Thank you. I read that somewhere too. Not a big fan of meat so I’ll have to stock up on nuts and seeds.

    Deb - You are too kind. Thank you. Isn’t that restaurant amazing?

    Amy - I don’t think I could ever give up caffeine. Love coffee too much.

    Ava - Thank you. They are, aren’t they?

    Jena - Oh, you’re so sweet! Thanks! :)

    Ms. Moon - Thank you. I am hoping that it gets easier after a day. I heard that it usually takes the body three days to get over the starch cravings.

    Diane - A white tongue? Now that is scary!

    Mrsbear - I too have a habit of having dessert after my meals. Time to stop!

    Sabine - Sadly, yes. It must be done.

    Beth - You are right. A reward system must be put into place.

    Susan - Thank you. :)

    Kathy - I love my bread too. Which is why I’m in this situation.

  16. angiem Says:

    Mwa - I think that’s a wonderful idea. I’ll pick Sunday as well since it’s the day I get together with friends and family.

  17. Nancy C Says:

    I swear by the handful of almonds. It helps tide me over like nothing else.

    Best of luck.

  18. Corinne Says:

    Good luck! I can’t even imagine tackling a change like that… I honestly think it’d be way harder to kick than the whole alcoholism thing.

  19. TERI REES WANG Says:

    For a long time, I was forced to follow as similar diet plan to save my life.

    The to any addiction is to replace one habitual indulgence with another, safer and eventually equally satisfying one.

    Like when a drunk exchanges his bottle for the bible.

    Kirsty Alley years ago, paid her self in giant bouquets of fresh slower with all the money she saved from kicking her daily cocaine intake.

    Find and do something good for you and you will hardly miss that ex-boyfriend “Bread”.

    P.S. Yes, my weight evened out but, odder than that, my face started to resemble someone else. My child like chubby cheeks were gone, as well as the heavy eyes and replaced by a higher, brighter and somewhat more sophisticated face that was now in the picture. I need to get back there.

  20. TERI REES WANG Says:

    curried sweet potatoes:

  21. Laura [What I Like] Says:

    Ah, you are a much better woman than I! I’ve found it’s all about how I’m stocking my cupboards…as long as there’s something at least somewhat satisfying around, I’m OK. Otherwise I just graze and graze, attempting to satisfy myself when nothing I’m eating really does it!

  22. Mama Zen Says:

    Good luck!

  23. Francesca Says:

    Good luck! I was once on a gluten and lactose free diet, doing without wheat didn’t bother me, but going without cheese was a torture!

  24. miss cavendish Says:

    Ahh–love almond croissants. On a side note, two out of my three children selected croissants today and my 4-yr-old son offered the croissant-less sister a bite of his “garcon.” They do sound similar when you’re 4.

  25. cathi Says:

    I am on the same quest as you….I am just trying to eat healthier and it’s been a few months and I have done pretty well at it…I am cooking at home alot instead of going out (which I used to do alot) and my daughter is vegan, so definitely she has been a good influence on my eating habits too….a few sweets now and again can’t be denied however! Good luck! xxoo :)

  26. Lena M. Says:

    I need to go on low carb mode soon as well, Angie… I just hope my recipe tasting won’t last much longer!!! Not because I need to loose weight, but because I feel so tired when I eat wheat byproducts…

    I love cookbooks as well… I use them mostly for reference though… I have this ingredient book I think you would love… lots of photos in there… I sometimes just sit and turn the pages, daydreaming of food!!!

    Warmest hugs!

  27. Gigi Says:

    You brave, brave soul! I have been working hard at eating healthier foods. My biggest change is cooking almost all meals at home. I haven’t eaten meat in about 15 years, but I still eat cheese and eggs and fish, and oh, I do LOVE bread. It is the single hardest food for me to give up. I had to quit coffee a few years ago, and I did that with relative ease. I don’t even drink alcohol anymore, but bread and cheese? I struggle. I really, really do.

    I’ll be rooting for you, Angie!

  28. audrey Says:

    hey Angie, good luck with your endeavors to kick the sugar and flour habit. we’re all in your corner. i myself have been wondering how to lose a few pounds around me belly. i admit i haven’t tried as hard as i can. i just kinda want it to disappear.

    goodluck and i admire your decision.

    thanks so much for the incredibly beautiful message you left for me on l’air!


  29. Claudia Medeiros Says:

    Thank you so much for your lovely words on my blog yesterday :) I’m really blessed for having such lovely bloggy friends !

    God bless you ! Have a beautiful and inspiring week :D


  30. Cindy L. Says:

    Angie, good luck to you. Sounds like your intentions are in the right place!

    When I cut back seriously on carbs and sugar (didn’t cut them out completely), I lost some pounds. But I really dropped the weight after being on a pesco-vegetarian diet (mostly a plant-based diet with fish occasionally) for a year. Best of all, my blood tests showed vast improvement! However, I don’t think I could have done this when my son was younger and at home with us.

  31. Jennifer Says:

    You can do it! Maybe it would help to think of it as not just about weight but about health.

    We rely *a lot* on wheat products in our house, though I usually cook with whole-grain flours. I do stay away from sugar for the most part (not entirely, though) since eating too much of it saps my energy and concentration. Six years ago I went to a cooking school that was all about health, so I have all kinds of techniques for cooking the healthy way — though it is so easy to slip up, especially with little ones around.

  32. Anya Says:

    I am with you on your efforts! I know exactly how it feels and hope that you will manage to reach your goal! Wishing you beautiful week :-)

  33. Becky Ramsey Says:

    Oh, the pain. The pain, the bread, get it? :)
    Doing without my bread makes me one grouchy girl.
    Best wishes to you on your goal!

  34. Stephanie Faris Says:

    That’s why I do Weight Watchers. I can’t give up ANYTHING. I just do everything in moderation.

  35. Ange Says:

    Angie, I lost 6kg last year and haven’t felt better since. To reduce temptation, I bake all my own cakes etc with organic wholemeal flour and raw sugar at the minimum. Surprisingly, my kids - and even other kids still like it! Just goes to show. But it killed me to quit the sugar. I love lollies. Once a couple of weeks were up - I didn’t miss it anymore.
    The trick is DON’T lick the knife or the spoon after you’ve served the kids and all goes a lot more smoothly.
    It’s not so much about magazine ideals as feeling healthier in your own body. I feel lighter, less lethargic, more agile and not as bloated.
    Good luck - I’ll be rootin’ for ya ;-)

  36. Bridgette Says:

    Dear Angie,
    I can feel your pain, I have done this before myself. It turns me into a raving maniacal bitch for about 10 days and then VIOLA! I’m all better.
    Good luck, I have been toying with this idea myself, I have this talk every year about this time.

    P.S. Don’t worry about the brownies…we are very happy together:)

  37. SJ Says:

    I’m not much for sugar….I don’t really have a big sweet tooth except for chocolate every now and then. BUT….I’m a fool for carbs. And fried food. :)

    I bet your cooking is soooo good! I can’t wait to get the cookbook and update my progress…

  38. krista Says:

    would you mind doing it for me as well?
    (as i’m drinking a soda. an all natural soda, full of cane sugar. le sigh.)

  39. Autumn Says:

    Best wishes Angie. I will be praying for you. I was going to turn a new leaf tomorrow as well. I don’t know if I can go cold turkey just yet, but I have fallen from the healthy eating wagon over the past few days. I also need to get back to my working out. So, just know that I willl be working on healthier eating right along with you. That should make you feel somewhat better. :) xoxo!

  40. Evangeline Says:

    Ugh, I know, I know. I have been on the same road myself lately…and for the self proclaimed Queen of Cupcakes this is HARD! Hang in there.

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  42. Holly L Says:

    So much to say. I am on and off this wagon all the time. I really am trying hard to get complete control…I am better but not as good as I should be. I am trying to stick with the book/eating plan that helped me back in the day…we’ll see if I have some better will power.

  43. Kari Says:

    I’m thinking I need to do the same. Summer is coming around the corner and I need to do something quick!!!
    Good luck.

  44. Dawn Says:

    Hmmm…good luck with this. I know how you feel. I honestly think my life would be considerably darker without sugar and flour. I try to cut it out but I don’t have the willpower. I’m quite pathetic, really.

    I also like cookbooks with pictures. Really, what’s the point of a cookbook without them? How are you supposed to know what looks good if you can’t look at it? ;)

  45. Bethany Says:

    hang in there Angie.
    I am struggling right now with brownie cravings.
    you are smart, the way you are going about this.
    stay strong!

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